Screwed.

The past week is screwed. Many things happened. And its all bad. I think I'm at the verge of losing a friend. I really hope it won't go to that. Slackplace is killing me. Not the place but the people. Some of them at least. My phone is spoilt.

I'm faced with this problem. I always act without thinking. My actions act for the present. Never for the future. What I act will only settle whats going to happen in the next 5 minutes. That's wrong. That's really wrong. Today I got an sms from a friend. I kinda shouted at her in an effort to shut her up cos I was frustrated trying to explain something. I din realise it hurt her feelings. Luckily she smsed. Only way for me to realise.

Another thing is that its now known. I hate you. I fucking hate you motherfucking bastard asshole. This person is a "he" from escape theme park. He's a real bastard. Screw him. Hope he chokes to death on a grain of rice while eating with his family. Fucker's always finding trouble with me. I never wanna show that I hate him. I know that problems escalate. So I always act neutral. And just wanna say that it is no one that I lepaked with just now. Yes. It was also because of that fucker some bad things slipped ot of my mouth a long long time ago about another friend. I only meant it as a joke. Now its a big problem. That real fucker. How I really hate you bitch. You're a fucker. You know whats a fucker? That's you.

I just wanna type out my anger here. So I would really appreciate no one asking me bout this post okay? NO ONE. This post will serve as a reminder to me so that whenever I try to do something without thinking. Maybe this post can help a little in reminding me whats wrong from right. And how does problems get settled? Even though it does not affect me,It affects someone because of me. I don't know what the fuck i'm talking about. Thinking too much ready. Fuck it. Hope that I wont lose that friend. Will time heal all wounds? Will my friend dwell on my words and never forgive me? Can the damage be undone? Is apologising enough?

I may never know.